There are some things a girl cannot  just forget nor accept.  Specially when comes from  a deared person.  It just intrigues me the way men are. So foolish, stupid, close minded and they only think with one head ( and no I don't mean the one that holds your brain ).  Men these days don't take women seriously unless If is for something easy. Why though? I don't understand. If women sleep around theyre consider "Sluts", but In the other hand, If men sleeps around they are consider some kind of  "God".  That's just plain retarded. But what can be done nothing? If we literally live In a world ruled by men. In a world where we are used as they desire. Where we are thrown and diposed like pieces of garbage. It's too late to change men, they shall never change, It's just the way they were brought up to be.

In my Insides I hoped things would get better...sadly I realized things wouldn't get better because they have never been.  I was holding onto something that was never mine, something that was only borrowed. I believed everything that was said, stupid me didn't know It was all a lie. I lived In a lie, a fake for 9 months....but now I live in the light.... Tears aren't enough, tears are dried, those tears are gone, there's none left. If dreams can tell what's really going on In a waking life, then I know it all now. I unconciously realized the truth I've been seeking for months already. It saddens me, but It's better to know than living In a lie. A lie that was perfectly developed so it could appear as a "truth". But the truth Is not fully out there just yet, only part of it. And what's rest to come It's most likely worst than what I thought. I guess he yet knows who's he messing with.....Yes I'm foolish and stupid, but not dumb nor naive.

I'm so angry univision cut off 10 mins of "Amor Real" final episode. WTF?? Fuckers!!!

I haven't realized how much I miss Ecuador. For real, besides missing my father I miss the partying scene, clubbing...etc..In my opinion clubs here aren't as fun as in Ecuador, to be specific the Guayaquil scene. Night life over there Is amazing, while here you can't go to clubs until you 18 and most 21, over there Clubs open their doors for you as young as 15!!! More fun, maybe cuz here Is COLD most of the year, we only get like 3-4 months of warm weather ( if not less), instead over there Is warm all yr long. I don't know but the environment over there Is amazing, can't explain.

I wanna go back, but of course not to live, just for a 2 months vacation....sad thing Is I don't know when I'm going back. I have no one to hangout with over there anymore, (only my cousins) since my "friends" turned out to be two-faces. I think hanguing out with my cousins Is more fun, cuz theyre older. I have an idea Ima tell my mother to take Inside her luggage since she's going over there In April. LOL.

Today has been a very weird day.............

Isn't he sooooooo adorable looking?

I'm glad, I might just start school again In a week and a half. Finally. All I gotta do is show up next week and give a placement test.

Anyway It's time to leave everything In the past and not look back of what seemed a beautiful story which turned out to be dramatic episode In my life. Never look back, always look forward.

Juanes (he's sooo hott)